Overwhelmed, but will overcome!

Have you ever find yourself wanting to do so many things that you end up not doing it all? I have a bad habit of putting myself in this situation way too many times. I tired different techniques to help me focus and priorities what I want to do and what I want to accomplish. However, each time I try, I end up giving up immediately. It’s worse after becoming a parent. This does not mean that I regret being a mom, but it is reality and I think I can confidently speak the truth about it without having to glaze over it.

It’s funny, I never use to be this way. I was always on top of my goals, had a structure that I stick to that help me get things done. Nowadays, I’m very forgetful, and always on the go. It doesn’t help when I lose sleep as well. I’m always on overdrive.

Just writing this also makes me feel a little anxious and overwhelmed. I don’t even know if I’ll make any sense, but I will try to go back and read what I wrote to make sure it’s cohesive.

A few months ago, my appendix burst. I was at the hospital, under pain management care, for 5 nights. It was bearable to be at the hospital the first couple nights, but it became depressing and draining after the third night. It finally dawn on me that I haven’t been truly taking care of myself. I’ve been busy being a mom, a wife, a daughter, a friend, a sister, a colleague, and many more. So busy that I neglected myself and my needs. Now my neglect to myself didn’t cause my appendix to burst. In fact, it was a benign appendix that decided it wanted to burst with no real rhyme or reason. I was lucky enough that when it did burst, it was contained so I did not have to go through open surgery. Appendicitis is very common and it’s not a life-threatening cause that would immediately take you out. Thank goodness for that. However, it was going through the pain and being confined in a room for more than a night, that put me on edge. I can’t sit still. I always feel the need to wonder. If you put a chain on me, I would wither away into dust. I need constant stimulation to get me going. Maybe that’s why I’m always looking for new experiences to quench my wanderlust, and the experiences do not have to be so grand.

So I decided to get back into the blogging scene. I know the scene is saturated. Everyone is on social media apps now days. But you know what, I’m going to go old fashion. Writing is a way to express myself. Sometimes, I have to write it down before I can type because I grew up with writing.

So what is it that I can offer on my blog, or rather what I want to do here? Well…I don’t know where this will take  me but I hope I can be an inspiration to some folks out there who needs it. I hope by sharing my experiences in my everyday life, you won’t feel alone. I hope that also by sharing my obsessions in fashion and food, you’ll find it information and helpful. Again, I don’t know where this will take me. I hope I can keep blogging. I fell many times, and I really hope 2020 will be different. Full of accomplishments and a start to something great.